Clouded

I'm not sure when I lost my way. It kind of creeps up on you and then next thing you know you're lost in a part of town that you're supposed to stay away from. You know, that one path that has had its chance and you try to avoid most days. That's where I'm at today.  

Pride has been a major issue for what seems like forever. Pride and control. I've grown so much in these areas. God has healed me emotionally and with that freedom comes so much blessing. But today I had one of those days where you want to scream and cry while stomping your foot and slamming the door. When the frustration of the school day ended, I closed my classroom door, put on some Bethel worship and literally cried out to God. What I said is personal, so I won't  repeat it here, but I know He heard me. 

Focus. My focus is off. I'm being selfish and I can feel it creeping in. Slow down and trust God. That's the word God spoke to me in August and that's the word I'm holding on to today. I've gotta trust God with my present just like I trust him with my past and my future. I am who He says I am and in that I can find the strength to go back to work tomorrow with Christ's love for these kids in my heart.