I'm a terrible team player. Either I'm amazing and take charge, leaving everyone else in my wake, Or I'm terrible and I don't even attempt to muster up any effort. I often hope that the team at disposal will ask me to do logistics instead of actively engage in the event. There's not much middle ground with me. I'm the "Martha" in the story. Always gotta be DOING something.
So today I decided that I was going to let my team at work carry some of the work load. I knew they wouldn't and boy do I hate being right when it comes to things like this. Let's call them S and C. S hates his job. He doesn't know Jesus so he finds his purpose in that which he cares about and money. Since his current job is neither of these things, he tends to be rather miserable. C likes her job. She is passionate about being a good teacher but she feels constricted by the admin involvement in what we are teaching. Neither S nor C are willing to go above and beyond. They don't follow the core value of excellence that I follow and that left me feeling frustrated today. and irritated. The kids are suffering because of it. I wish I could go in and reach them. Both S and C and the kids. They all need Jesus.
I prayed through my day today. I felt clear and focused. The irritation subsided and I ultimately had a great day. The kids are learning and growing and I think everything is going to be okay.
